Ava! It's like almost midnight but after searching and searching I FOUND YOUR OLD BLOG! Yay! Now you can read all about what you were like as a baby, and how much I love you!
Love,
Mom
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Far too long...
Wow, yeah sorry it's been so long... it's not for lack of stories, or wonders of you that I haven't written, I think time just gets away so much faster than you think it will...
Ok, let's catch up. Your favorite thing (besides blanks and uh oh) is "Moose", your stuffed cow. You're trying to call him "moos", but can't get the "s" sound right, so it comes out Moose, which is way cuter anyway, so it's stuck.
You are a character, for sure. You love to babble out a story then stick your neck out and look up at some and go "hahahahahahah!" all strained. You just have so much to say... I can't wait to hear it all. Your words have gotten so much better though... You are now stringing small sentences together. It helps if we talk in song. You also sing all the time. Your favorite songs seem to be the ones I make up on the fly, such as "where is grandma?" and "go see peanut". You are obsessed with Eric (erc), Gwen (gen), Max (mack) and Peanut (neenut). We go over there a few nights a week so that I can work here in Port Orchard and you get so excited.
You just started preschool. I'm glad you get the chance to hang out with other kids. Sometimes I feel so sad watching you wander around outside all by yourself. You don't know you don't have anyone to play with, so you're content just wandering, playing with the dogs, etc... But I wish there was someone for you. Maybe one day. =)
You are just getting sweeter and sweeter and time goes on. It's so much fun to be with you! You are really such a good listener most of the time. You love to help. You give the sweetest hugs and kisses. A few nights ago I was massaging dad's back, and you came over and started rubbing his head and playing with his hair, then just put your arm around his neck and laid down on his shoulder. It was so precious that it almost made me cry. I wish I could just suspend time so often to hold onto those beautiful moments. It's such a paradox to want to see you grow and learn and discover, and yet want you to stay where you are and not let you go. I love you so much kiddo. You are my heart. I hope that you always know that. You are a beautiful little girl. And loved by so many people, I pray that you'll always know how loved you are. You have a sparkling personality that's completely infectious. I love you with all my heart.
Ok, let's catch up. Your favorite thing (besides blanks and uh oh) is "Moose", your stuffed cow. You're trying to call him "moos", but can't get the "s" sound right, so it comes out Moose, which is way cuter anyway, so it's stuck.
You are a character, for sure. You love to babble out a story then stick your neck out and look up at some and go "hahahahahahah!" all strained. You just have so much to say... I can't wait to hear it all. Your words have gotten so much better though... You are now stringing small sentences together. It helps if we talk in song. You also sing all the time. Your favorite songs seem to be the ones I make up on the fly, such as "where is grandma?" and "go see peanut". You are obsessed with Eric (erc), Gwen (gen), Max (mack) and Peanut (neenut). We go over there a few nights a week so that I can work here in Port Orchard and you get so excited.
You just started preschool. I'm glad you get the chance to hang out with other kids. Sometimes I feel so sad watching you wander around outside all by yourself. You don't know you don't have anyone to play with, so you're content just wandering, playing with the dogs, etc... But I wish there was someone for you. Maybe one day. =)
You are just getting sweeter and sweeter and time goes on. It's so much fun to be with you! You are really such a good listener most of the time. You love to help. You give the sweetest hugs and kisses. A few nights ago I was massaging dad's back, and you came over and started rubbing his head and playing with his hair, then just put your arm around his neck and laid down on his shoulder. It was so precious that it almost made me cry. I wish I could just suspend time so often to hold onto those beautiful moments. It's such a paradox to want to see you grow and learn and discover, and yet want you to stay where you are and not let you go. I love you so much kiddo. You are my heart. I hope that you always know that. You are a beautiful little girl. And loved by so many people, I pray that you'll always know how loved you are. You have a sparkling personality that's completely infectious. I love you with all my heart.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
March 19, 2008
My dearest little Ava,
I can hardly believe how much you've changed over the last few weeks! You've become so much more aware of everything and have started using so many new words! Yesterday you came up to me and hugged and kissed my arm for no reason. It was the first time you'd spontaneously kissed me, without being prompted. It melted my heart like you wouldn't believe. You've also started pointing at things saying "no no!" in a loud voice. =) Your favorite thing by far is Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. You could watch it for hours straight if I let you... until you found something to get into anyway. =) I love your little kiss face... when you want a kiss you stick out your lower lip like your pouting and crane your neck forward. Every night when I put you to bed we have to say prayers, and you have to give goodnight kisses. You're "smiley face" consists of you squinting your eyes and baring your teeth... you do this every time you see a camera. =) I wish I could remember every single adorable little thing that you do... but I don't. I would write them all down so I would never forget them. Do you know how my heart lights up every time I see you? Do you know that when you cry it makes me want to cry also? Do you know that the sweet little things you do, like blow kisses to strangers, makes me want to cuddle you so hard and never let you go? I hope you always know... no matter how old you are, or what happens in life... You are loved unconditionally. I will never turn my back on you. I will never choose someone over you. I will protect you and your reputation. I will always love you, Ava. I can't help it. One day you'll be angry at me, and think that I don't... but I do. More than you will ever know until you hold your own child one day. I pray every day that I can be a good mommy to you. That I will make good decisions. That I will show you how to love Jesus and how much he loves you. Every thing I do in my own life to improve myself is now for you. So that you won't deal with what I have. So that you can be healthy and know that you're loved and have that stability in your life that will give you the confidence to fulfill all your dreams. You are beautiful. I hope you always have that crazy confidence that lets you be imperfect, and embrace it. It's ok... sometimes it's the imperfect things that make you the most beautiful... Don't waste your life trying to be the best... just be you. Be happy. Smile. Goof off. Don't care what you look like at every second. It's not worth it. Always remember that the beauty you have inside will shine through. Don't be broken. Don't let anyone break you. Be strong, be a fighter, be happy no matter what. Don't let anyone steal your smile. I wish someone had told me these things when I was little. I wish I could have grown up knowing them, instead of trying to replace the myths in my life with these truths now, as a grown person. Please know that whatever mistakes I make, Ava... I don't want to. I want to teach you everything... but I can't. I'm still learning myself. Forgive me for the mistakes that I make. Forgive me for the hurts that I'll cause you one day... and the things that I instill in you that will need to be undone. =) I try baby girl... and I always will. One day you might write these very things to your daughter, hoping that you can do better than what you had... and you will. I believe in you. I love you with all my heart, little one. This might not all make sense... but tonight, to me, it does.
Love, Mom
I can hardly believe how much you've changed over the last few weeks! You've become so much more aware of everything and have started using so many new words! Yesterday you came up to me and hugged and kissed my arm for no reason. It was the first time you'd spontaneously kissed me, without being prompted. It melted my heart like you wouldn't believe. You've also started pointing at things saying "no no!" in a loud voice. =) Your favorite thing by far is Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. You could watch it for hours straight if I let you... until you found something to get into anyway. =) I love your little kiss face... when you want a kiss you stick out your lower lip like your pouting and crane your neck forward. Every night when I put you to bed we have to say prayers, and you have to give goodnight kisses. You're "smiley face" consists of you squinting your eyes and baring your teeth... you do this every time you see a camera. =) I wish I could remember every single adorable little thing that you do... but I don't. I would write them all down so I would never forget them. Do you know how my heart lights up every time I see you? Do you know that when you cry it makes me want to cry also? Do you know that the sweet little things you do, like blow kisses to strangers, makes me want to cuddle you so hard and never let you go? I hope you always know... no matter how old you are, or what happens in life... You are loved unconditionally. I will never turn my back on you. I will never choose someone over you. I will protect you and your reputation. I will always love you, Ava. I can't help it. One day you'll be angry at me, and think that I don't... but I do. More than you will ever know until you hold your own child one day. I pray every day that I can be a good mommy to you. That I will make good decisions. That I will show you how to love Jesus and how much he loves you. Every thing I do in my own life to improve myself is now for you. So that you won't deal with what I have. So that you can be healthy and know that you're loved and have that stability in your life that will give you the confidence to fulfill all your dreams. You are beautiful. I hope you always have that crazy confidence that lets you be imperfect, and embrace it. It's ok... sometimes it's the imperfect things that make you the most beautiful... Don't waste your life trying to be the best... just be you. Be happy. Smile. Goof off. Don't care what you look like at every second. It's not worth it. Always remember that the beauty you have inside will shine through. Don't be broken. Don't let anyone break you. Be strong, be a fighter, be happy no matter what. Don't let anyone steal your smile. I wish someone had told me these things when I was little. I wish I could have grown up knowing them, instead of trying to replace the myths in my life with these truths now, as a grown person. Please know that whatever mistakes I make, Ava... I don't want to. I want to teach you everything... but I can't. I'm still learning myself. Forgive me for the mistakes that I make. Forgive me for the hurts that I'll cause you one day... and the things that I instill in you that will need to be undone. =) I try baby girl... and I always will. One day you might write these very things to your daughter, hoping that you can do better than what you had... and you will. I believe in you. I love you with all my heart, little one. This might not all make sense... but tonight, to me, it does.
Love, Mom
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
General Ramblings... October 24, 2007
You are just growing all the time aren't you? I think I don't give you enough credit for how brilliant you are sometimes. You are not quite 16 months and you're already counting! You can count up to three things, fingers, cheerios, books, etc. We had your pictures taken a few days ago in your little fairy costume, I swear those photographers are miracle workers, because you would not sit still, or smile or anything... I do not envy their job, let me tell you. Let's see, what else are you up to? You're still calling your dad "Matt!". Every morning when you wake up you say "hiiii!" then its "MATT!!" You're always calling him, wanting to know where he is. You're favorite thing is still reading. It's the one thing that can make you sit still for longer than 7 seconds at a time. You have so much energy it's amazing... seriously, how do I not weigh 90 pounds after chasing you around? You're not bad at all... you're really very very obedient. You throw fits once in awhile, but you understand everything I ask you to do, and generally do it. You are just so curious, and want to see and touch and eat, and take everything apart. We went to go play with your friend the other day, and instead of playing with things, you're taking them apart, and pushing buttons on the DVD player, and chasing the dog and the cat... You love things that "do stuff"... You're not really into baby dolls, you like your stuffed animals well enough... Elmo still kinda scares the crap out of you sometimes though... I can't wait to move so we can finally get you a dog, I've never seen a kid who's as obsessed with doggies as you are... at least not at your age.
I love you Avis, you're the best little thing in our lives.
I love you Avis, you're the best little thing in our lives.
Friday, October 5, 2007
All the things I wish someone had told me...
1) Nothing is guaranteed, or certain. You can lose money, beauty fades, friends can move, family can pass away, wit and knowledge can be stolen by old age... The only thing that no one or no thing can ever take away from you is Jesus. Always live your life in such a way that you remember that.
2) The type of music you listen to will directly affect the kind of person that you are.
3) Never choose a friend for their looks, their popularity, or their money.
4) No one is ever more important than you are. People are just good at pretending.
5) Hold your head up, smile, shake hands firmly and look people in the eye. It will take you far.
6) Family comes first. Stick together and have eachothers backs. One day you'll regret it if you don't.
7) Boys are a dime a dozen. Find a man who loves God, and loves you. If you're not compatible, move on. Life is short, don't waste your time with the wrong one.
8) Don't keep company with lazy people who have no ambition or goals.
9) Remember that every mean person is hurting on the inside.
10) Treat everyone as if they're the most important person in the world.
11) Never say in private what you don't want said in public. Even if only half of it ever gets out, that can lead to a lot of embarrassment.
12) You will never know how much your parents love you... until you have children of your own.
13) Don't bother with grudges or bitterness... odds are they don't care anyway.
14) Whenever you're in a new place and you're feeling insecure, smile and go talk to someone who's standing alone. They're feeling the same way.
15) 98% of life in mental. Everything is outlook and perception. Think positive, be positive. Always be grateful. Make every day the best day ever.
16) There is nothing that you can not do if you really want it bad enough. It may take hard work, but never give up. Anyone that tells you otherwise had already made excuses for their own failures.
17) You will attract what you think about. May all of your daydreams have happy endings.
2) The type of music you listen to will directly affect the kind of person that you are.
3) Never choose a friend for their looks, their popularity, or their money.
4) No one is ever more important than you are. People are just good at pretending.
5) Hold your head up, smile, shake hands firmly and look people in the eye. It will take you far.
6) Family comes first. Stick together and have eachothers backs. One day you'll regret it if you don't.
7) Boys are a dime a dozen. Find a man who loves God, and loves you. If you're not compatible, move on. Life is short, don't waste your time with the wrong one.
8) Don't keep company with lazy people who have no ambition or goals.
9) Remember that every mean person is hurting on the inside.
10) Treat everyone as if they're the most important person in the world.
11) Never say in private what you don't want said in public. Even if only half of it ever gets out, that can lead to a lot of embarrassment.
12) You will never know how much your parents love you... until you have children of your own.
13) Don't bother with grudges or bitterness... odds are they don't care anyway.
14) Whenever you're in a new place and you're feeling insecure, smile and go talk to someone who's standing alone. They're feeling the same way.
15) 98% of life in mental. Everything is outlook and perception. Think positive, be positive. Always be grateful. Make every day the best day ever.
16) There is nothing that you can not do if you really want it bad enough. It may take hard work, but never give up. Anyone that tells you otherwise had already made excuses for their own failures.
17) You will attract what you think about. May all of your daydreams have happy endings.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
September 30, 2007
Today we were playing in your room, and I was reading a book while you were “reading” your books. I looked over and you were laying down on the floor with your blankie saying “mmmm!” “mmmm!”. I went over to see what you were “mmming” about, and you were sucking on the carpet! Apparently you found a spot of childrens Tylenol that had spilled in your room when we gave it to you in the middle of the night! I swear you’ll eat anything!
Your molars have almost all come in. You’ve had a fever for daaaaays, seriously. I didn’t know what was wrong with you and then today I was tickling you and you laughed real big, and I could see a whole bunch of them! Poor kid, must’ve hurt!
We took you to Emerald Downs today too. I hope you had fun because I don’t think we’ll ever go back. =) It was very cold, and we were outside the whole time! Luckily there was an overhang because it was pouring down rain. You ate a corndog, and shared it with Caleb Gould. You would only eat it if he did too. =) You kept giving him and Noah hug after hug. It was very cute. How come you won’t give us hugs like that?!
Your molars have almost all come in. You’ve had a fever for daaaaays, seriously. I didn’t know what was wrong with you and then today I was tickling you and you laughed real big, and I could see a whole bunch of them! Poor kid, must’ve hurt!
We took you to Emerald Downs today too. I hope you had fun because I don’t think we’ll ever go back. =) It was very cold, and we were outside the whole time! Luckily there was an overhang because it was pouring down rain. You ate a corndog, and shared it with Caleb Gould. You would only eat it if he did too. =) You kept giving him and Noah hug after hug. It was very cute. How come you won’t give us hugs like that?!
September 11, 2007
Hey Ava!
I thought it would be fun to write you a journal, so that you would know what you were like when you were a little munchkin! I started a little after you were born writing on paper, but I think I’ll do much better if I can type it out. So even though you’re over 1 now, why not get started!
What made me think to do this was, the other day you were eating dinner. We were eating McDonalds, which we don’t let you have very often (but grandma gets you a lot!), and dad handed you a chicken nugget, and a little tub of sweet and sour sauce. You dipped your nugget very carefully, like you always do, and then you took a bite, and calmly placed it on the table. Then you grabbed the sweet and sour with both hands, and stuck your face in it! I guess you liked it! We got some pictures of you eating the sauce. It made us laugh so hard. We love you so much Avis, you don’t even know. I guess you probably won’t know until one day you have your own kids. And yet, it seems so impossible that our little baby will ever grow up like that!
I thought it would be fun to write you a journal, so that you would know what you were like when you were a little munchkin! I started a little after you were born writing on paper, but I think I’ll do much better if I can type it out. So even though you’re over 1 now, why not get started!
What made me think to do this was, the other day you were eating dinner. We were eating McDonalds, which we don’t let you have very often (but grandma gets you a lot!), and dad handed you a chicken nugget, and a little tub of sweet and sour sauce. You dipped your nugget very carefully, like you always do, and then you took a bite, and calmly placed it on the table. Then you grabbed the sweet and sour with both hands, and stuck your face in it! I guess you liked it! We got some pictures of you eating the sauce. It made us laugh so hard. We love you so much Avis, you don’t even know. I guess you probably won’t know until one day you have your own kids. And yet, it seems so impossible that our little baby will ever grow up like that!
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